Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in toster_boi's LiveJournal:

Friday, July 8th, 2005
10:46 am	well last weekend i went to da keys,it wuz pretty str8 i chilled wif 1 of ma ex ova dere and her sister which i use to like her 2 lol .but its weird cuz in some way we wuz all connect.ma cuzin wuz best friends wif her brother and its been 1 year since i saw his sister.da other sister i saw her last summer.so w/e me and ma cuzins friends chilled played ps2 drank watch da fireworks talk mad shit and i finaliy went to da beach cuz its been 1 year since i been in da beach.and now i live in hialeah its pretty far but to yesterday i came all dat way from ova dere to da beach (dats where im at now).i mean i miss da beach so much but wut can i do move bak and b homeless im str8.lately ive been really lonely.i really need to find some1 to get wif.im gettin mad bored not messin around. i mite hook up wif dis chick da lives in ma complex.and i feel like ive been wastin ma time but dont take it in a bad way (u noe who u r)and u noe i love u.i noe ive been fuckin up in many wayz but wut can i do i aint perfect.but w/e ima cut it rite now til next time junior Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
10:57 pm	today im been challanged mentaliy.i really dont noe wut to do. im inlove wif a gurl but ma problem iz dat i dont noe if i should move on.u ppl wouldnt understand how i feel and its not like i dont want u ppl to understand its just i dont tell no1 shit cuz if i do ppl start feeling sad and i dont want dat. i love each and every1 of yall but ima stop sharing how i feel cuz i affect alot of ppl and dats not wut i want.but bak to da subject i love her but i feel we goin nowhere and like deres alot of shit dat makes me wanna move on.like i noe she talk to alot of ppl and it bothers me. but wut can i do ,she said i change but in reality shes da 1 dat changed.and not tryint o talk shit but she make herself look like a hoe and alot of ppl dont like her.and like i dont blame her cuz i fucked up to but still sumtimes it feels like shes playin wif ma heart.like im so depress ova her and i cant get ova her. and if yall really wanna noe how much i love her i almost got her name on ma neck............ junior Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
3:28 pm	ive been feelin bad lately 2dayz ago i found out she talkin to some guy and da thing dat fuck thing about it iz she wuz flurtin wif me and it hurt me cuz she played wif ma heart.i feel it i wuz used. but w/e i cant let dat shit get to me.im a go blaze 1 up now so ima let yall go 4 now Junior dot sum str8 pimpin Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
10:00 am	.... damn to day i woke up and every1 at ma friends crib wuz sleeping.i coulnt go bak to sleep cuz ive been havin troublez sleepin lately.so i put on ma ipod on and i started jamin and dis 1 song came on it wuz by a guy name last emperor and da name of it wuz heaven.so i listen to it and deres 1 verus dat i hurd on it da made me cry out of nowhere.it hurt me cuz it made me think of ma dad.and sometimez i think hes lookin down at me or around me.and i noe hes disapointed in me 4 everything i do.and like it hurt cuz i wuz never close to him and i blame ma self for hes passin.ma dad would of come down smokin if he didnt have to worry about me.and i treated him like shit .and i look at it now and it bothers me alot.i shouldnt have been such and asshole to him. and now wen i need him da most.i miss him to death.i would alwayz love him and neva goin to 4get about him R.I.P manuel lan father and a friend Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)